i love myself too much,
so i can't bear being invisible in silence.
but i'm also embarrassed of being myself,
so i wish i could be invisible in silence.
i talk because i love myself.
but then i hate everything i spoke out.
this contradiction is driving me insane for years.
to put it simply, i just want to be happy.
to love myself, to love people, and to be loved.
i wish my life could be all smooth,
as a reward for my modesty/humbleness.
but it's impossible for any life to be smooth.
~Forever a High-School Boy in Love~
i'm talking to you...
- my life